Goals

1. Fall in love
2. Get married in the temple
3. Have a family
4. Become an accomplished artist
5. Save up $5,000 before I get married
6. Graduate from BYU
7. Own a house
8. Have a garden
9. Own a car
10. Have my own studio

Travel to
11. Australia
12. Italy
13. France
14. Mexico
15. The Philippines
16. New York City
17. Hawaii
18. Washington D.C.

Learn
19. How to cook well
20. Self defense
21. To kickbox
22. To play the piano
23. To play the guitar well
24. To ice skate well
25. To change a tire all by myself
26. To change oil all by myself
27. The location of every country
28. How to hip hop dance
29. How to swing dance
30. How to Latin dance
31. How to belly dance
32. To knit
33. To swim
34. Spanish
35. Tagalog

36. Go on Mission
37. Dance on the Great Wall of China
38. See the northern lights
39. Fly first class
40. Visit all 50 states
41. Drive without being afraid
42. Stay in a 5 star hotel
43. Eat in a 5 star restaurant
44. Swim with dolphins
45. Be and audience member for a TV show taping
46. Milk a cow
47. Donate blood
48. Run in a marathon/race
49. Surf
50. Build a real sandcastle
51. Ride in a limo
52. Catch fireflies in a jar
53. Ride in a hot air balloon
54. Gather all loose pictures and scrapbook them
55. Visit a water park
56. Have a book published
57. Bake a pie from scratch
58. Really ride a horse
59. Get first aid and CPR certified
60. Ride a tandem bicycle
61. Give up something for Lent
62. Learn how to Scuba Dive
63. Backpack through Europe
64. Get kissed under the mistletoe
65. Go snowboarding
66. Paint a mural
67. Be in a movie
68. Volunteer at a soup kitchen
69. See the Hill Cumorah pageant
70. Perform on stage by myself
71. Attend the Sundance Film Festival
72. Fill up a sketchbook for a month
73. Own a hammock
74. Do the temple work for my ancestors
75. Improve my handwriting
76. Sledding
77. Memorize all 100 scripture mastery scriptures
78. Meet someone famous
79. Meet a General Authority
80. Read the Bible cover to cover
81. Read the Missionary Reference library
Jesus the Christ
The Articles of Faith
The Truth Restored
A marvelous Work and a Wonder
Our Search for happiness
True to the faith
Our heritage
82. Read all 6 of Jane Austin’s novels
Sense and Sensibility
Pride and Prejudice
Mansfield Park
Emma
Northanger Abbey
Persuasion
83. Be a model
84. Do a sidewalk chalk drawing
85. Go behind a waterfall
86. Be an art teacher
87. Catch a fish
88. Go spelunking
89. Go Skydiving
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100.

I Just Wanna Dance!

I have a strong desire to dance. I went to the social dance lab last wednesday and the feeling hasn't left. I didn't actually dance. That was the sad part. I'm not taking a dance class right now so I watched everyone else. I went because my roommate was performing a dance number at the lab. Now I really want to take Dance 280 next fall. The problem: I took Dance 180 freshmen year which just happens to be 4 years ago. My roomies have gladly offered to tutor me.
The obsession doesn't stop there. I'm really considering taking another semester just to take classes that I want. More dance. More art. I'm already taking an extra semester past when I could graduate. I think it'll be a little embarrasing to tell people it took me 6 years to graduate when it really could have only taken me 5. I don't know though. I came here to get an education. I'll already have a housing contract and if I stay I won't have to try and sell it. I'll probably be here in Utah for next winter semester so why don't I just go to school. It's also not like I'm paying for it. My grants cover tuition. I think I've convinced my roommate to stay another semester with me.

We shall see.

The Board and I

Wow, I tell you what, wow.
I was mentioned on the board today. This is like the highlight of my life! (Ok, well maybe just the highlight of my day)

Board Question 33383

Other than this my life hasn't been eventful. My roomie and I did go apartment hunting today. We found a really great apartment, everything we are looking for, big bedrooms, older ward, the only downside being it was a lot of money. We are thinking it probably wasn't the best idea to start with this one. Everything in comparison is not looking so great. We still have a lot to look at, though.

It's Just a Crush

Yes, I think fear should not keep me from doing things. However, if I wasn't afraid then it would be much easier.
I liken my crush on the board much to any crush I would have on a boy. Take my guy friend for example. I can totally talk to him, flirt it up, call him, pretty much anything and I know he wouldn't think I'm wierd (well maybe he would, but he likes me anyway). When I have a crush on a boy though it is vastly different. Take my most recent crush. We went on a date and all of a sudden I have a hard time figuring out how my cell phone works. I stare at the reflection in the mirror with careful inspection. Do I talk too much? Not enough? Should I have asked him out? Did I come off too strong?
That's how crushes are. I've built him up in my mind and in turn loose all ability to be myself. It has really been more trouble than I could imagine. I like it when I date someone and feel comfortable in my own skin. It has happened. My problem is this is too much of a crush. Somewhere I started doubting myself.
I'm outgoing, funny, creative and any guy who is worth my time would see that. But if not than I will just move along.

So in response to Dragon Lady's comment about me missing an opportunity to go to a Board Party, well quite frankly I might not have been able to handle it. It's likely I would have been too frozen with anxiety to have even been myself.
It's just a crush.

Wishin' and Hopin' and Thinkin'

I heave a heavy sigh. Secret time.

I have a crush on The 100 hour board. I read it all the time. I try to think of questions that that haven’t been asked before or questions that really matter to me. Some go unasked because I could just as easily find these answers myself. It’s not even the asking of the questions and then seeing my name written for everyone else to see. I like reading what everyone else asks then seeing what the writers came up with. The writers of the board are writers for good reasons.

After class yesterday I went over to the Wilk. There I saw the board booth and some supposed writers. I wanted to go over and say something, but I couldn’t think of anything. Silly, no? I couldn’t pretend I hadn’t heard of it and I didn’t want to be the gushing fan. I happened to find someone I knew nearby and talked to him for a few minutes while shooting discreet glances back at the board booth. We parted and I left for home.

Oh, but it does not end there. I had a dream about the board last night. I was in their midst talking to them about who knows what. It must have been a board party. I found myself next to the booth again with a friend. This time I wasn’t scared. I was actually talking to them. I’ve never had a dream like that before, of something maybe I should have done, but didn’t have the courage to follow through.